[Day +17] It’s official, I’m exhausted…


“Three things ultimately define you: Your patience when you have nothing, your attitude when you have everything, and who you help whenever you are able.”

#MORNINFG (8 : 03)
The objective for today is to go to a quest to find some energy to keep on going…
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_KEEP ON DOING: 0 entries (the geeks for “no inspiration)
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#EVENING (22:54)
It’s official, I’m exhausted… Both physically and mentally. I must have hit my limit at this point. Even my blog posts are coming out a day later, sorry for that!
Even though I did put my rest time in order and I now make sure to sleep at least 8h (cuz otherwise I’m just a brain vegetable all day) I still don’t feel at my best state (not even the above average, in fact). And the more I am tired, the less I understand and the less I have wish, energy and motivation to search for my mistakes and answers. And thus I get pissed and I ask for help.  It make me move forward with the program but my dissatisfaction and fatigue levels still stay on the above acceptable levels…
And as we talk about motivation, I start to realise that the Piscine is made to find that breaking point and it looks like over the month everyone comes across their own. The good news is I didn’t fall into the “quitters” category of those who cracked on the 1st or 2nd week and left on their own. But I’m not that far behind it seems.
It surely out of the question that I’m giving up now, I’m here all the way through but… But the fact that I’m not 100% in and active is a half-quitting to my eyes. Anyway, it starts to turn into a self-pity complaining post so I’m gonna move to some of the more cheerful parts of the day!
I was still struggling with the Malloc today. And has started the videos on the next topic – D08 – that I don’t get much of just yet, so come check the details in tomorrow’s post
I have finally validated the D07 (it took me just 3 days of struggle and 4 good friends who had enough patience to explain to my half-operational brain how to fix my code… Au passage big thank you to @Gabriel, @Jack, @Max and @Paul). So tomorrow on I pass to the #Define and “.h”. And for now here are the bottom line results.
EXAM01 – 22% – (Level 2) – FAILED
D09 – 10% – 1xFAILED
D07 – 60% – 3xPASSED
D06 – 100% – 2xPASSED
D05 – 64% – 3xPASSED
D04 – 85% – 1xPASSED
RUSH00 – 120% 
D03 – 72% – 1xPASSED
D02 – 80% – 3xPASSED
D01 – 65% – 1xPASSED 
D00 – 75% – 4xPASSED 
1.STAFF IS COOL. Ok, every time I go to correct someone for whom it’s not the first time they submit the certain day, one way or another the talk leads to how unwelcoming the staff is when you ask them to help find a mistake. And as a consequence how “not cool” (this is not the real word that is used, but my mum taught me not to say those that are, so I leave it to your imagination).
And thus I figured I would tell my side of the story regarding the staff. My opinion is that anything is possible if you have the right attitude and know how to put the right words to what you need. And so far my interactions with staff were only positive. Then it sure worth mentioning that I’m a girl, and they are nicer with girls in general, but still. Anyway, to avoid turning this into a philosophical opus I will move to my special thank you section and it goes to @Bodo  for my new picture (that is still in progress of being updated) for the intranet.
As we have recently got our photos uploaded to the intra, we now have a “pleasure” to behold our “lovely” faces each time we connect. And my initial photo is just hoooorible. And considering the low motivation I already have, having to witness the weird creature that is supposed to be me doesn’t help the situation (to clarify, the picture is taken with the wide-angle web cam, which transforms your face into a spheric cartoon character if you don’t choose a good angle while posing).
So I have charged myself with the chocolate, Hollywood smile (the one I practiced for years for a special occasion like this one) and convincing arguments and went to Bocal to ask to change the current photo to the one that looks more like me. And the lucky photographer turned out to be @Bodo, who was nice enough to take 2 pictures (of course I wasn’t happy with the first take, common haha) in exchange for just 1 piece of chocolate!! So there is nothing convincing me that the staff is not cool))
And thank you, Bodo )
_CHALLENGES: 0 entries (the geeks’ for “no inspiration”)
One of the main challenges is to keep on going when the energy storage are thinning out with each passing day and the tasks get harder with every passing day as well. And at those moments of “I just don’t give a ship, I’m tired and fed up, show me the exit” it’s very important to have the right person around who can tell you that it’s normal and that the Piscine was designed so that this phrase comes to mind at least once a day (it also helps to wear the T-Shirt say the first bit of the phrase above).
And today’s special thank you goes to @Billy, who took on this important role today and was very convincing in his speech.
And I did realise once more that however exhausting, frustrating and infuriating the Piscine can be, the people you meet here alone worth all the hardships it brings.
And so I’m tomorrow will be another great day!
As you might have guessed from the work time logs and the overall description of the experience since 3 weeks I have been living and breathing the Piscine 42, and got quite disconnected form the outside world, with some exceptional get outs when you fail an exam…
But the thing is that life doesn’t stop. And as hard as it is to manage the Piscine agenda, when you add some admin issues or urgent work stuff to take care of, it turns into a slightly unmanageable situation. And for the past 2 days I had to do some of the stuff for work that took me a good 4 hours… Adding up the already highly overcharged agenda. And it’s then when you realise that life doesn’t stop and for the first time since the start I caught myself on counting the days that are left before the end and dreaming about the normal “sleep in – see friends – eat pancakes – do nothing – weekend”.
10 days to go…
@Jack again ))) (dedicated to Jack’s mom))) Today the scene that I call “when the Intra tells – you will correct Jack Halford”.
As it turns out it’s kind of a big thing to have on your agenda here at Piscine August 2016. And so the correction of Jack (who is,just to give you the context, far ahead of anyone in the Piscine) looks more like a reverse coaching session, or “come-see-the-genius” guided group tour. For starters, the corrector usually comes with friends haha (yeah, it starts with “OMG, you are correcting Jack Halford, can I come with you”). When the delegation arrives, here comes the usual scenario I have already mentioned, which is “Nice to meet you, Jack. Install yourself comfortably, we are going to correct my Day11. Oh, you are still at Day5? Ok, so here what the task was, here is how I did solve it the first time. Here are the mistakes I found myself prior to the second submit. Here are the mistakes from the tests of the Moulinette. Here are the reasons why, here is how i fixed it. And this is the list of things to keep in mind when you do those execs. So for your correction there is just the 01 that was wrong and so I changed it this and that way.” Once the “correction” is done, the delegation tends to claim a bonus session of the additional coaching (after all they did come prepared). And sometimes it does sound like an obligation that for some reason they consider they have right to claim, rather than a friendly request.
I guess I know how to choose friends, I never fail to choose the best ))) And btw, I have already booked Mr.Genius for the CTO role in my future company (that does not have any what ready idea, investment or a project team, but it has me and the CTO to be, so the rest will come)

2 Replies to “[Day +17] It’s official, I’m exhausted…”

  1. I’m cutting onions to make chicken tikka massala for tonight, we have 19 reservations, and I’m exhausted… but exhausted differently from you guys… I really admire what you guys are doing, keep doing it, don’t give up, the end is near! And I’ll cook you a curry chicken massala anytime, Kate!

    1. Fantastic! My bags are already packed ))))

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